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Wouldn’t change it…

So tonight as I looked through Facebook tonight, I see a girl at her graduation. Back in my teens I babysat for many kids, I’ve watched them all grow up and this girl was the youngest, now graduated and grown up. It makes me feel old, yet happy that I was a part of these kids lives even for just a little bit.

However, never did I think I would be sitting home alone of a Friday night this late in my life. I had plans, get married and have kids. Yes, you’ve heard this before. I’m not sorry, it’s my dream and I will continue to have hope that God keeps His promises. But, how could I look back and say I wish I had married young. I would be missing out on so many things. I wouldn’t have had the friendships I’ve had, I wouldn’t be able to see my niece and nephews like I can, I may not be as close to my grandparents as I am. I could go on, things would have been different.

So this is just a reminder for me and whoever reads this, God has a plan, count each day as a blessing and never forget there is good in everything, even if it doesn’t go as you planned.


God has better plans

Today started out an emotional day, no real reason for it other than being an emotional woman it happens. The plans I was looking forward to got changed, no big deal really. I was still going to church and planned on going to the Christmas concert.
   After church I called my mom and we decided to go shopping for a few gifts we needed. I wasn’t in a great mood while we shopped, people were just getting to me. By the time I got home I didn’t want to leave the house again. But I had told people I was going to be at the concert.
  So I got ready and went. Some reason I sat in the front row, when I felt like hiding in the back. As I was sitting there getting lost in the song playing in the sanctuary I see a hand waving at me. I looked over and saw Christopher Hopper waving at me. I wave back,  then tried to look forward again (I really just wanted to sit by myself) but God had other plans. Christopher told me I was sitting to far from the Hoppers and told me to come sit with them. I did, but still remained quiet. So he came down and we started talking about my current job situation (that’s another blog for another time). We talked details and options, I talked about just trying to have faith & trusting God. Of course because of my emotions the tears started flowing. He reminded me of a quote that I actually have on my wall by Pastor Tommy Barnett “You are allowed to want to quit, just don’t”. Much needed reminder for a few situations in my life.
     I was asked to keep an eye on their kids during the concert.  Something I’ve enjoyed doing for 10 years. Oh the things the Hoppers kids have taught me through the years. I could write a book…. hmm… a book about how I’ve been blessed by kids, that’s an idea. Anyway, I sat next to Judah. We bonded tonight we his many trips to the bathroom and staring at me with goofy faces. He made me smile and laugh throughout the night.
   It was the youngest Levi who touched my heart tonight and inspired this blog. At one point during the concert Joel & Bekah threw candy canes out in the audience. The Hopper kids all had one, but Levi ended up with two. So he looked around for someone to give it to. He gave it to a little girl a few seats down, then tried giving his other one away. We told him to keep it it was his. But he ended up with another one. He spotted two little boys father down the row that didn’t have any. He looked at me and I told him it was ok, he could go give it away. He gave them both one then walked back to his seat. It was so sweet, he came back empty handed and seemed ok with it. So when I spotted one on the stage that I could reach, I got it for him. He kept that one and opened it right up. He wasn’t expecting another one, but he was happy he got one. He was selfless, when a lot of kids today would have kept all three for themsleves. It warms my heart to see kids think of others, we really can learn from Levi’s selflessness especially this time of year.
   To think I was going to stay home. I was originally hoping my best friend would come and a new guy friend too. If they had I may not have had the opportunity to be blessed by the Hoppers.
   God would have blessed me in other ways, but sometimes you just have to look look for the blessings when things don’t go the way you planned. Something we all need reminding of. Trust God and have faith that it will all workout. 


It’s not even Thanksgiving yet, but for this one lady Christmas is could apparently be ruined.
   I have worked retail for many years and have seen many different things during the holiday season. Stores putting Christmas trees up in July, people shopping for the perfect gift, ladies sitting at a restaurant table planning how to tackle Black Friday shopping. By Christmas a retail worker can actually get sick of it and forget what it’s all about.
  Apparently so can shoppers. People have stories about why they buy the things they buy. Some gifts have great meaning. My neighbor is the sweetest, she leaves me little gifts all year long. Small tokens to let me know she is thinking of me. It means a lot.
  I love to give gifts, especially ones that share a memory or something specific to that person. Getting them is fine too, it can be fun.
   But Christmas is more about spending it with the people you love, not how much you spend on everyone. Sharing your time is worth more than sharing your money.
   This lady came in looking for a specific ornament that was limited edition and is very upset she may not be able to get it. She said 2 or 3 times that this could just ruin Christmas. It makes me sad that this is what people base a Merry Christmas on.
  Look around you and be thankful for the people in your lives who love and care for you, not what things you may or may not give or be given for Christmas.




My heart is a huge heart that has time and time again been hurt. It has been broken and maybe even shattered once. I have been told that I am sweet many times. I tend to care way to much, way to fast. How have I not learned to stop caring and putting so much effort in a friendship or a potential relationship?
  Friends have come and gone, guys have as well. Now as I am thankful most of the guys are not a part of my life, as I know God has the best one for me somewhere and I knew they weren’t it. Rejection is never easy, and it has made me at times want to give up. But I still have that hope, no matter how much I try to hide it. I still have hope that there is a guy who is interested and wants to date me.
   I know God’s promise for me and it is not to be single my whole life. He has someone for me. Someone who will put some effort into keeping me around, who’s means it when he says that he wants to go out with me. Who loves Him above all and will love me more than I can imagine. Waiting this long hasn’t been easy, but will be worth it.
  God didn’t give me a big heart for it to keep getting crushed, but for loving and caring for others. He protects it, from hurting for to long. He has plans and because of that , no matter how much doubt tends to get into my head, I will continue to have hope and trust. I will continue to care and love on others.



Life’s Risks

When I opened my Bible this morning I realized that I couldn’t read it until I got a pen or highlighter and I usually have paper or write in the margins (sometimes both). The Bible is God’s living word, you never know what you will discover.
The first verses I read inspired me to write this blog.
“Whoever digs a pit may fall into it;
whoever breaks through a wall may be bitten by a snake.
Whoever quarries stones may be injured by them;
whoever splits logs may be endangered by them. Such are the risks of life. ”
(Ecclesiastes 10:8 – 10:9 NIV)

Life is full of risks. If you read the whole chapter it talks about living with integrity, not being foolish & not being afraid of life’s everyday risks.
So for me God said it’s ok to open your heart and risk getting hurt. It’s ok because He will be with me every step of the way no matter what happens. 🙂

So take a risk today, life is full of them. With God by your side anything is possible!

My true joy

I am naturally a happy person, it doesn’t take much to make me smile. Smiling comes natural, but my true joy comes out when I am holding a baby. Nothing delights me more than holding one of God’s most precious creations.

I’m blessed to be surrounded by a wonderful family & friends who allow me to share their babies. I can’t thank them enough.

I can’t help but think of the baby who was born to save our souls. The joy others must of felt as they gazed upon such an amazing child. With the Christmas season hear may we remember that God loved us so much He gave us His son. 🙂


Have you ever been searching for answers and not know where to look. I’ve been in that spot for the past couple month’s looked for answers in the wrong places.
Yesterday I was reminded by Christopher Hopper to go back the simple things. And by another pastor, I was reminded That the bible is the way God communicates with us. So in order to get the answers we need we need to go back to the basics, prayer, reading the bible & seeking His wisdom & comfort.
I opened my bible this morning & I couldn’t help but smile at the verse He wanted me to read.
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or dismayed before the king of Assyria and all the horde that is with him, for there are more with us than with him. With him is an arm of flesh, but with us is the Lord our God, to help us and to fight our battles.” And the people took confidence from the words of Hezekiah king of Judah. (2 Chronicles 32:7, 8 ESV)

As changes in my life come the reminder to be strong & courageous is perfect. He is with me through all things good & bad, it’s not going to be easy but He will make it worth it.
God is so good! 🙂



As I got out of my car yesterday I looked up and saw this cloud formation above my grandma’s house. I love clouds and how God paints pictures with them so I took a picture. As I headed into the office I felt a little nudge saying “look what I did behind the office”. So I took the extra 5 steps and saw this


If I just went in the office I wouldn’t have seen this remarkable painting. Sometimes we miss things because we don’t go the extra distance. If you feel God nudging you to go a little further Go, He has something special for you.

Worship is a life style, it is your daily visits with God, it can be singing, reading your Bible, praying, helping others. It is what ever you do I praise Him!
A corporate worship of singing can be intimidating to those who have no idea what is going on. My favorite thing to do other than engage in the worship myself is watch the ones I love share the intimate moment with God. It’s so rejoicing to see someone you know who is struggling lift their hands to God and see them receive His presence. At times it brings tears of joy to my eyes. Love God time!20120128-235842.jpg


What is different?

My morning devotions this morning made me reflect on how Christians are different than others.

How will anyone know that you are pleased with me and with your people unless you go with us? What else will distinguish me and your people from all the other people on the face of the earth?” (Exodus 33:16 NIV)

Have you ever thought about that? If you look on the outside, you can’t tell. Even some of the personalities, characteristics are the same. The difference is who are we living for? Are we living to make an empire here or in eternity?

Just something to think about. Thoughts anyone?